You have suffered a lot because of me, and for that I carry a heavy burden.

I don't know what to say or do. However, maybe my problem is I want to be the most special man,

but I am not, I am full of worry and not a kid with light. I can only pray that God can change my

mind, because I will only get older and older. I don't ask for you understand me, but I am scared

to death. Can God can make something beautiful out of my life? I love you more

than you know, which hurts that you are involved in this mess too. I am so sorry.